Monday, March 2, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
1. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.
Not gonna happen...I'm pretty sure I have to have Health Insurance for this one-Which I don't. So I'm replacing this goal with Do more Yoga and/or Pilates. I did both today! I think I'm going to do less of the actual weight lifting, and more of these two things-Especially since the are both mega challenging for me...I thought I was pretty muscley...Guess not.
2. Be creative.
Well...I have been more creative in my clothes lately...See below.
3. Save 100 dollarzzzzzz/week.
Despite LA Fitness Gym and the bank (both trying to steal my money in equally scummy ways) I've continued to save the money,honey.
4. Veeeeeeeeeeeeegan. Do it.
And doin' it and doin' it.
5. Lose 5 pounds in Jan, Feb, and March. Keep it off.
Still...No weight lost, but none gained! So there's an upside. I need to keep focusing on what I eat, obviously, because...
6. Go to the gym 6 days a week.
...isn't the problem! This is easy for me...If only refraining from eating vegan chocolate and peanut butter was as easy...
I can't wait to wear my pretty red flats more often....
And more outfits like these, minus the pants and leggings...And rainboots (even though they rock).
Thursday, February 26, 2009
H: Are you allowed to have dessert?
Me: Only if I eat my lunch first!
H: I love love LOVE LOVE BEER! But I'm not allowed!
Me: What? Beer?!
H: YES! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE BEER!
Me: Who gives you beer?
Me: Um...But only a little bit, right?
H: Yup! Like this shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhllllllllllllllllluuuuurp!
As much as she drives me nuts, I love her to death. It's never boring with Little Miss H.M.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I really can't put my finger on why I do it. Most of the time when I'm even around these people, I'm fidgiting, nervous, and uncomfortable...Worse, I second guess myself into acting like someone I not, and thinking that the person I am just isn't good enough. Hmm...Maybe this is why I stopped hanging out with those very same people in the first place.
Well, guess what, from here on out:
Monday, February 23, 2009
My dad picked up the phone and just mentioned that they had gone to St.Louis for a show and that my mom wanted to tell me about it. Sounded normal...
My mom gets on the phone and says, "Well...We had to come home at 5 am...Because...And, everything is fine now but..."
And I won't write what she told me. But...I am aware that people make mistakes, and that my family is not excluded from making mistakes either. But you never expect your family to make mistakes or to let you down (even when they make the same mistakes you've made).
And although I am disappointed, I will always love my family no matter what they do.
And now that promises have been made that these mistakes won't happen again, we move on.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
children with excitment, skipping down sidewalks
hot hot hot hot heat
suntan freckled skin
bare feet meets sand
iced cucumber water
unfiltered actions for once
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
I also noticed that I am currently running a mile in 9:40 minutes at 6.0 to 6.8 intervals. I'm going to start keeping track of this and see how much it improves month by month.
Also....I am extremely thankful for my brothers. I'm lucky enough to have three of them.
This is my big brother Josh. We're only a year an a half apart and we're totally night and day. When we were little I wanted to be him, and I still think he's an extremely amazing and heroic person. He joined the Navy exactly 2 days before 9/11 and continues to serve in the Army as a guard at Guantanamo Bay. He's always the one to tell me like it is, no filters, no b.s., even if it makes me cry...But most importantly, when I do cry, he's always there offering his shoulder.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
"AND THEN YOU CAN DO IT TOO WITH YOUR KIDS!!!"
"But I don't have any kids!" I replied.
Without even a pause, she responded,
"Well maybe you should get to work on that...."
She's three, folks. Three. Her mom had to leave the room she was laughing so hard.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Rat 1912, 1924, 1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996
Romance could be tricky for rats this year. Many of you in long-term relationships will come to the realisation that the person you’re with is not the one you actually want. However, that’s the only area of 2009 which presents problems, because everything else looks wonderful. This is a great year for your career, especially for those people who work outdoors or have positions of leadership or authority. Rats will eat a lot of good food this year too, but should take care not to overindulge! The elder family members of rats may have health problems, & rats are discouraged from engaging in risky sports because the chance of getting harmed is high! Overall, rats will make great progress this year as long as they know that good things take time.
Hmmm.....We shall see, Chinese Astrology....We shall see.
1. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.
2. Be creative.
This was an easy one for me...I've completed and hung 2 paintings that go together. I love them! I've also been working more on my scrapbook. Ultimately, I want to sew more. So far so good though.
3. Save 100 dollars a week.
Done and done! I've saved mega bucks this month and I love it!
4. Vegan: Do it.
With the occasional slip of chocolate and sometimes inevitable skim latte (because I can no longer have soy, doctor's orders), I've done pretty well this month.
5. Lose 5 lbs each month until March.
Womp! Womp! Haven't done this one this month. Although, I've been working out 5-6 days a week. I can only conclude that I need to pay more attention to what and when I eat. I have a bad habit of snacking-And even though I usually eat healthy things all the time, snacking is still a bad habit and isn't good for my metabolism (which is already pretty crummy).
6. Go to the gym 6 days a week.
GOAL REACHED FOR THIS MONTH! Keep it up, yo.
3.5 out of 6 this month, (a .5 for the vegan goal)...I think I'm doin pretty darn tootin grand!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Death Cab for Cutie is pleased to announce 2009 US tour dates.Ticket links and the current tour information will be available at http://www.deathcabforcutie.com/tours.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
I've finally decided to stop fighting the battle and admit that I am not a night person. I have always been this way. I love going to bed at a decent hour and I LOVE waking up between the hours of 5 and 7 AM.
I love waking up and heading straight to the gym. I love that hardly anyone is there while I start and finish my 30-40 minute run. It just gives me this amazing peace of mind that sets the mood for the rest of my day. I also revel in the thought that by 10 AM I've run 3-4 miles, started have made it through 2 hours of work already, and/or painted/cleaned/done laundry/written/etc...Most of the people I know haven't even gotten out of bed by that time.
Enter the downside of being a early bird...A lot of my friends are night owls. Their night begins when my head hits the pillow. I wish I could stay up late, but when I do I usually feel pretty crummy the next day.
Anyway, tonight I'm hangin out solo, sipping wine, sitting in my pjs, and surfing the internet and having more fun than I would at a bar.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Of course, they were girl names, and I didn't really like any of them...Probably because right now, I'm in no position to have children. I don't even want them right now. Hell, with my job I don't need to have any kids right now. In a way, I have three of my own kids, ages 3, 1, and 4 months. We kick from 8-5:30 Monday-Friday and then I'm done. Usually by the end of the day I fly out of work like it's on fire...
So yeah, I don't really know why I lay there for a half hour thinking about baby names. Is okay to blame hormones?
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
So, this one time, my friend Lindsey Jane and I decided it would be a really good idea to pretend that we had JBM. That's right, JUST BEEN MARRIED!
So we decorated my '91 dark blue toyota camry with soap and paint...Pink triangles, things such as "JUST HITCHED," rainbows, etc....
We dressed up in our old prom dresses....
We drove around blaring Weezer's, "Pink Triangle."
We drove around Savoy, Champaign-Urbana, and the U of I campus specifically (and guess what, it was move in day for students-PERFECTO!)
I think we also stopped by Wal-Mart for some reason, I don't remember why.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh, good times.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Built a climbing course for a 1 yr old
read many many children's books
took a nap
baked vegan peanut butter chocolate chip cookies
cleaned up the mess from baking +the mess from H and D's "WE'RE BAKING COOKIES TOO, PATTY!"
did 40 minutes of cardio
and smiled....all day long
Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Today, during "rest time," I heard H "reading" loudly. As I crept upstairs to ask her to quiet down so she wouldn't wake her brother up, this is what I heard:
"AND JESUS LAUGHED AND HE LAUGHED!!!"
What was she reading, you ask? Baby's First French Words
Sunday, January 4, 2009
it started from the beginning, before they even really met and i think it ends when he dies, he's much older than her, i don't really know the ending just yet...but i peeked a little bit
i drank this red wine the whole time...it was supposed to taste like fruit and chocolate. but it tasted like water and shitty wine.
normally i get drunk half way through a glass, and last night was a normal night
i easily lost focus on a page and found myself thinking of the first time i made love, not sex, love
i'm surprised i remember every detail of how it began
the Appleseed Cast and dimmed lights, my teenage room and scared teenage mind
and he told me, " You're beautiful."
i don't remember anything after that,
but how kind and gentle you always were in that relationship...
especially in my reckless state of mind
i don't know if i really meant it last time we talked,
but i'm sorry for my carelessness
how ironic is it that this new, beautiful, amazing love i have found started out with the same band? i just realized this.
p.p.s. that wine was really shitty
Saturday, January 3, 2009
i think your better off dealing with the fact love is not a reason to believe that one day things will be great and you will feel content
you cannot feel great, you cannot feel content, when you feel so misplaced withing yourself
what you have become lately is complete bullshit
i don't know who this person is that hides her emotions with alcohol and stupid disrespect of sex
you will not feel great, you will not feel content, until you deal with what is really happening within yourself
i am through understanding your cowardice
i have been exactly where you stand today...except honest and stronger
and i can't stand behind you when you turn your back on me whenever meaninglessness is an option
Thursday, January 1, 2009
1. Go to the gym 6 days a week.
This shouldn't be too hard for me to do. I'm pretty good about it, except for those days
when I drank too much the night before or worked too late.
2. Lose 5 pounds of fatty fat in January, February, and March and keep it off.
3. Go back to being a vegan.
After reading the book, Skinny Bitch (Oh, yes! I am embarrassed about this one!), and
after wanting to puke at the things I read, I'm going back to it. I pretty much was one
already, but I made exceptions for fish and eggs....Not any more. More and more, I believe
that our bodies are not made to eat and digest meat and dairy.
4. Save $100 a week.
Since I'm moving back to Chambana in the summer, I'll need to save up some dough.
Besides, there's something comforting about knowing there's a bunch of money stashed
away for a rainy day.
5. Be more creative.
This includes painting, sewing, music, e'rethaaaaaaaaang. I find myself laying on the couch a
lot watching tv in my downtime, when instead I could be doin' stuff!
6. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.
Need I say more?
I think that's it......I've written these down in my day planner so I can stare at them daily. We'll see how this year goes!