Thursday, January 29, 2009


Tomorrow I am going home....

And I'm superly duperly stoked about it.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Year of the Ox

So I meant to post this the other day, better late than never. This year is the year of the Ox in Chinese Astrology...I, however, am a Rat! My horoscope is as follows via iCiNG.

<3 Rat 1912, 1924, 1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996

Romance could be tricky for rats this year. Many of you in long-term relationships will come to the realisation that the person you’re with is not the one you actually want. However, that’s the only area of 2009 which presents problems, because everything else looks wonderful. This is a great year for your career, especially for those people who work outdoors or have positions of leadership or authority. Rats will eat a lot of good food this year too, but should take care not to overindulge! The elder family members of rats may have health problems, & rats are discouraged from engaging in risky sports because the chance of getting harmed is high! Overall, rats will make great progress this year as long as they know that good things take time.

Hmmm.....We shall see, Chinese Astrology....We shall see.

i want more tattoos and cute hair

like this girl, gala darling...she is adorable

Resolutions, Resolutions Update

An update of my Resolutions for 2009.

1. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.
I haven't done this yet. I think there's an informational meeting next month, but I can't remember. I did send an email, asking about how to volunteer....So...I'm getting there? I need to try harder on this one.

2. Be creative.
This was an easy one for me...I've completed and hung 2 paintings that go together. I love them! I've also been working more on my scrapbook. Ultimately, I want to sew more. So far so good though.

3. Save 100 dollars a week.

Done and done! I've saved mega bucks this month and I love it!

4. Vegan: Do it.
With the occasional slip of chocolate and sometimes inevitable skim latte (because I can no longer have soy, doctor's orders), I've done pretty well this month.

5. Lose 5 lbs each month until March.
Womp! Womp! Haven't done this one this month. Although, I've been working out 5-6 days a week. I can only conclude that I need to pay more attention to what and when I eat. I have a bad habit of snacking-And even though I usually eat healthy things all the time, snacking is still a bad habit and isn't good for my metabolism (which is already pretty crummy).

6. Go to the gym 6 days a week.

3.5 out of 6 this month, (a .5 for the vegan goal)...I think I'm doin pretty darn tootin grand!

Monday, January 26, 2009

what i want for my birthday

Death Cab for Cutie is pleased to announce 2009 US tour dates.Ticket links and the current tour information will be available at
Friday, April 17th @ Chicago, ILAragon Ballroomw/ Cold War Kids, Ra Ra RiotFan club pre-sale begins 1/28, 3PM local time at: on-sale date: 1/31

"pro-optimism, pro-masturbation, pro-empowerment"

My friend, lindsey, is a smart and talented lady. Check it out.


Saturday, January 24, 2009

early bird

Tonight I'm staying in...Again.

I've finally decided to stop fighting the battle and admit that I am not a night person. I have always been this way. I love going to bed at a decent hour and I LOVE waking up between the hours of 5 and 7 AM.

I love waking up and heading straight to the gym. I love that hardly anyone is there while I start and finish my 30-40 minute run. It just gives me this amazing peace of mind that sets the mood for the rest of my day. I also revel in the thought that by 10 AM I've run 3-4 miles, started have made it through 2 hours of work already, and/or painted/cleaned/done laundry/written/etc...Most of the people I know haven't even gotten out of bed by that time.

Enter the downside of being a early bird...A lot of my friends are night owls. Their night begins when my head hits the pillow. I wish I could stay up late, but when I do I usually feel pretty crummy the next day.

Anyway, tonight I'm hangin out solo, sipping wine, sitting in my pjs, and surfing the internet and having more fun than I would at a bar.

Feel Good Naked

Why more women should FEEL GOOD NAKED!

Poll shows high early approval rating for Obama

"The new survey by Gallup — the first conducted entirely after Obama took the oath of office Tuesday — found 68 percent of Americans approve of how the new president is handling the job." -Alexander Mooney CNN

Friday, January 23, 2009


How is it that a 3 year old can make you want to shoot yourself within a matter of minutes?

Chia Obama!

Oh...I love Obama. And I seriously want one of these for my upcoming BDay. Fo' reals!


This morning I woke up at about 4 with a funky stomach and I couldn't get back to sleep.For some reason I randomly started thinking of baby names for my unborn children. I felt kinda crazy and hope that Chris couldn't read my mind as he lay there sleeping next to me.
Of course, they were girl names, and I didn't really like any of them...Probably because right now, I'm in no position to have children. I don't even want them right now. Hell, with my job I don't need to have any kids right now. In a way, I have three of my own kids, ages 3, 1, and 4 months. We kick from 8-5:30 Monday-Friday and then I'm done. Usually by the end of the day I fly out of work like it's on fire...
So yeah, I don't really know why I lay there for a half hour thinking about baby names. Is okay to blame hormones?

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

January 20, 2009

Yesterday, at work, I watched the inauguration with H and D.

"Look, H, it's our new President!" I said as I pointed to the tv.

She looked at the tv for a minute and then said, "I'm going to be President when I grow up! And D can be President too! I will love him and hug him!"

"Who will you love and hug?" I asked her.

"BARACK OBAMA!" she said to me, as if to say, "DUH, PATTY!"

I love it. Then she went on and on about how she was going to "...Wear a pink coat with princess swirls on it! And I'm going to be a dancer, a ballerina, the president, and a fairy!"

Oh three year olds...I love it.

Friday, January 16, 2009

a love letter

Oh, long beautiful hair, how I miss you so!

Today's Weather...

Sunny. Continued very cold. Highs 5 to 9 above. Lowest wind chill readings 30 below to 40 below zero in the morning. Southwest winds 10 to 15 mph.


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

This cartoon made me remember...

Married To The Sea

So, this one time, my friend Lindsey Jane and I decided it would be a really good idea to pretend that we had JBM. That's right, JUST BEEN MARRIED!

So we decorated my '91 dark blue toyota camry with soap and paint...Pink triangles, things such as "JUST HITCHED," rainbows, etc....

We dressed up in our old prom dresses....

We drove around blaring Weezer's, "Pink Triangle."

We drove around Savoy, Champaign-Urbana, and the U of I campus specifically (and guess what, it was move in day for students-PERFECTO!)

I think we also stopped by Wal-Mart for some reason, I don't remember why.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh, good times.

And then, there's this:

Married To The Sea

Oh, Natalie Dee...You are my hero.

natalie dee

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Today I...

Woke up at 5 am and lifted weights for an hour

Built a climbing course for a 1 yr old

Went sledding

read many many children's books

took a nap

baked vegan peanut butter chocolate chip cookies

cleaned up the mess from baking +the mess from H and D's "WE'RE BAKING COOKIES TOO, PATTY!"

did 40 minutes of cardio

and smiled....all day long

Monday, January 12, 2009

Awwww snap!

Today I start my new job as a nanny to a new family. I am excited to learn so much from a teeny tiny 3 month old! I am also thrillllllllllllllled to be working with a family who will be...Sane.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

"...And Jesus laughed and he laughed!"

Every day at work, the kids have "rest time." Usually D will sleep, he's only 1 so he's pretty tuckered out by noon. But H is 3 and feels she doesn't "need" a nap anymore, so we now call it "rest time." While she doesn't have to nap, she has to stay in bed and read books or play quietly with a few toys. After an hour or so, she falls asleep.

Today, during "rest time," I heard H "reading" loudly. As I crept upstairs to ask her to quiet down so she wouldn't wake her brother up, this is what I heard:


What was she reading, you ask? Baby's First French Words

Sunday, January 4, 2009

i used to be pretty irrational.

Four years ago, before I left for college, I cried because I was scared of what might happen to my little sister and brother without me...Guess what, they're fine. I used to be pretty irrational.

p.p.s. that wine was really shitty

last night i lay in bed in my skinny leg pants and pastel plaid halter top reading a book of love poems from a poet to an actress
it started from the beginning, before they even really met and i think it ends when he dies, he's much older than her, i don't really know the ending just yet...but i peeked a little bit
i drank this red wine the whole was supposed to taste like fruit and chocolate. but it tasted like water and shitty wine.
normally i get drunk half way through a glass, and last night was a normal night
i easily lost focus on a page and found myself thinking of the first time i made love, not sex, love
i'm surprised i remember every detail of how it began
the Appleseed Cast and dimmed lights, my teenage room and scared teenage mind
and he told me, " You're beautiful."
i don't remember anything after that,
but how kind and gentle you always were in that relationship...
especially in my reckless state of mind
i don't know if i really meant it last time we talked,
but i'm sorry for my carelessness


how ironic is it that this new, beautiful, amazing love i have found started out with the same band? i just realized this.

p.p.s. that wine was really shitty

Saturday, January 3, 2009

where is the line with you

i am done being you reason to believe in love

i think your better off dealing with the fact love is not a reason to believe that one day things will be great and you will feel content

you cannot feel great, you cannot feel content, when you feel so misplaced withing yourself

what you have become lately is complete bullshit

i don't know who this person is that hides her emotions with alcohol and stupid disrespect of sex

you will not feel great, you will not feel content, until you deal with what is really happening within yourself

i am through understanding your cowardice

i have been exactly where you stand today...except honest and stronger

and i can't stand behind you when you turn your back on me whenever meaninglessness is an option

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Resolutions Resolutions

So............New year, new goals. I did pretty good with last years goal of loosing weight. Which wasn't hard...Quitting birth control can do wonders! But I would still like to loose a few among other things. Here are my resolutions:

1. Go to the gym 6 days a week.
This shouldn't be too hard for me to do. I'm pretty good about it, except for those days
when I drank too much the night before or worked too late.

2. Lose 5 pounds of fatty fat in January, February, and March and keep it off.

3. Go back to being a vegan.
After reading the book, Skinny Bitch (Oh, yes! I am embarrassed about this one!), and
after wanting to puke at the things I read, I'm going back to it. I pretty much was one
already, but I made exceptions for fish and eggs....Not any more. More and more, I believe
that our bodies are not made to eat and digest meat and dairy.

4. Save $100 a week.
Since I'm moving back to Chambana in the summer, I'll need to save up some dough.
Besides, there's something comforting about knowing there's a bunch of money stashed
away for a rainy day.

5. Be more creative.
This includes painting, sewing, music, e'rethaaaaaaaaang. I find myself laying on the couch a
lot watching tv in my downtime, when instead I could be doin' stuff!

6. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.
Need I say more?

I think that's it......I've written these down in my day planner so I can stare at them daily. We'll see how this year goes!