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Um...also...I'm getting cats this weekend.


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Resolutions Update and Is It Spring, Yet?

Resolutions, Resolutions Update!



1. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.

Not gonna happen...I'm pretty sure I have to have Health Insurance for this one-Which I don't. So I'm replacing this goal with Do more Yoga and/or Pilates. I did both today! I think I'm going to do less of the actual weight lifting, and more of these two things-Especially since the are both mega challenging for me...I thought I was pretty muscley...Guess not.


2. Be creative.

Well...I have been more creative in my clothes lately...See below.


3. Save 100 dollarzzzzzz/week.

Despite LA Fitness Gym and the bank (both trying to steal my money in equally scummy ways) I've continued to save the money,honey.


4. Veeeeeeeeeeeeegan. Do it.

And doin' it and doin' it.


5. Lose 5 pounds in Jan, Feb, and March. Keep it off.

Still...No weight lost, but none gained! So there's an upside. I need to keep focusing on what I eat, obviously, because...


6. Go to the gym 6 days a week.

...isn't the problem! This is easy for me...If only refraining from eating vegan chocolate and peanut butter was as easy...

IS IT SPRING YET?

I can't wait to wear my pretty red flats more often....




And more outfits like these, minus the pants and leggings...And rainboots (even though they rock).

Yes, I know I look like I really have to pee..I don't really know what I was doing....

"I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooove BEER!"

Today, during lunch, H and I were discussing dessert, and how she cannot have dessert unless she's eaten a good amount of her lunch. This following dialogue is word for word, word.

H: Are you allowed to have dessert?

Me: Only if I eat my lunch first!

H: I love love LOVE LOVE BEER! But I'm not allowed!

Me: What? Beer?!

H: YES! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE BEER!

Me: Who gives you beer?

H: Daddy!

Me: Um...But only a little bit, right?

H: Yup! Like this shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhllllllllllllllllluuuuurp!

As much as she drives me nuts, I love her to death. It's never boring with Little Miss H.M.

F* THAT!

So last week was my Bday...And amongst a load of things that I was forced to realize that week, I also noticed that for whatever reason I spend, no waste, too much of my time on people whom, to quote Oprah Winfrey, deplete me.

I really can't put my finger on why I do it. Most of the time when I'm even around these people, I'm fidgiting, nervous, and uncomfortable...Worse, I second guess myself into acting like someone I not, and thinking that the person I am just isn't good enough. Hmm...Maybe this is why I stopped hanging out with those very same people in the first place.

Well, guess what, from here on out:

F* THAT!

I realize that this may make me sound like a b-word. But if you knew me at all, you'd know that I'm everything but that.

I'm an Aquarius, for the record.

Lightcasting

family, no matter what

Last night, as I was leaving the gym, I had a voice mail from my mom to "...Call home when you get this, everything's fine, but call home." I didn't really think much of it, my mom usually says this...She knows me so well.

My dad picked up the phone and just mentioned that they had gone to St.Louis for a show and that my mom wanted to tell me about it. Sounded normal...

My mom gets on the phone and says, "Well...We had to come home at 5 am...Because...And, everything is fine now but..."

And I won't write what she told me. But...I am aware that people make mistakes, and that my family is not excluded from making mistakes either. But you never expect your family to make mistakes or to let you down (even when they make the same mistakes you've made).

And although I am disappointed, I will always love my family no matter what they do.

And now that promises have been made that these mistakes won't happen again, we move on.

HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS?!

i want...

MacBook

raw

kittens

tattoos

sing
dance
juice
soup
smiles
laughter
giddiness
giggles
children with excitment, skipping down sidewalks
sunshine
hot hot hot hot heat
suntan freckled skin
bare feet meets sand
fresh air
sweat
seagulls
iced cucumber water
long walks
sunglasses
music
teaching
health care
craziness
unfiltered actions for once
me

anything can be

This past week has involved a lot of thinking, analyzing, deep emotional digging, and tears. I have been forced to deal with things I never asked, "WHY?!" about and then forced to answer them...Now I am trying to overcome them. It's sad. It's uncomfortable. It's disappointing. It's terrifying.

There are two people whom I love very much in this world and I owe them everything. But. I am 25 now. It's time for me to stop seeking their approval, and to start seeking my own approval. 

listen to the mustnts,child,

listen to the donts

listen to the shouldnts,

the impossibles,

the wonts

listen to the never haves,

then listen close to me...

anything can happen, child,

anything can be.

-Shel Silverstein via iCiNG (Thank you Gala Darling. Your timing is dead on.)

Hmph!

I want to move home right now. Right. This. Very. Second.


I want to be teaching right now. Right. This. Very. Second.

Just some thoughts...

Today I attended my first ever pilates class. Surprisingly enough, it really challeneged my legs. As a runner, I think my legs are the strongest part of my body...Not strong enough apparently. I'm going to try to go to this class at least once a week. Tomorrow, it's yoga!

I also noticed that I am currently running a mile in 9:40 minutes at 6.0 to 6.8 intervals. I'm going to start keeping track of this and see how much it improves month by month.


Also....I am extremely thankful for my brothers. I'm lucky enough to have three of them.


This is my big brother Josh. We're only a year an a half apart and we're totally night and day. When we were little I wanted to be him, and I still think he's an extremely amazing and heroic person. He joined the Navy exactly 2 days before 9/11 and continues to serve in the Army as a guard at Guantanamo Bay. He's always the one to tell me like it is, no filters, no b.s., even if it makes me cry...But most importantly, when I do cry, he's always there offering his shoulder.

This is my little brother, Paul. Now, all of my brother's are absolutely adorable but this kid is just too damn charming. I think he could smooth talk his way out of any situation...If not, he could sure make you laugh about it. He doesn't like a lot of people to know this either, but he has a huge heart. One time he called me just because he "had a bad feeling and thought I might need him." He'll do anything for anyone, and try to cover up his tracks along the way.

This is my littlest bro bro, Joey/Joe Joe/ Wilby. He is just a blue eyed, good hearted, adorable, sweetheart. He's the only sibling of mine to have our Grandpa's blue eyes which make him that much more adorable. I think he's the funniest of my brother's. With the exception of his quick wit and humor, I think we're the most alike. He's a little shy and musical (He won't admit it but he's really good at beat boxing).

Those are my bros. I love them. In writing this, I've had to keep from crying the entire time.

I was the only girl amongst the 3 of them until I was 12 (Then little Molls came along and everyone knows how much I love my baby sister). Because of them (and of course my parents) I had the best childhood of making huge mud puddles with the intention of completely immursing ourselves in mud; building forts every single weekend; spending Friday nights playing football with the neighbors; camping in the back yard; bike riding everywhere; turning every chore into some form of mischief; and so so so much more.

I have also been told that my best qualities are patience, honesty, and bluntness. I couldn't have obtained any of that without them.

Thanks, guys.

P.S. The last time I was home, my brother, Paul, mentioned that in comparison to his friends and their siblings-we seem to be so much closer. He said that he knows that no matter what, if he needed any one of us, we would all drop everything to help him.

I feel the same way- I first noticed it when our Grandpa passed away last year. At the visitation and the funeral I felt like we all stuck together and were constantly checking in with one another. And me, being the emotional one, always had someone's shoulders to hide my sobbing face in. I hope and prey it never changes.

Maybe you should get to work on that...

This morning when I came to work...For whatever reason H said,

"AND THEN YOU CAN DO IT TOO WITH YOUR KIDS!!!"

"But I don't have any kids!" I replied.

Without even a pause, she responded,

"Well maybe you should get to work on that...."


She's three, folks. Three. Her mom had to leave the room she was laughing so hard.

Kittens....

Everyone loves kittens...Including me. So when I came home last weekend and saw the kittens that my brother's cat just had...I succumbed to claiming two of them.

Meet Marley (my brother loves this kitten, but my dad won't let him keep it-So I am!)...

And this little kitty... We don't have a name for her yet. I thought, "Maybe Tina! So I can say things like 'Eat your freakin' food, Tina. Ya fat lard!" But that seems kind of mean...So I dunno yet.

These pictures are down right ugly...I'll take better pictures next time I'm home.

P.S. Any suggestions for kitten number #2? She/he's grey with white paws...

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow I am going home....



And I'm superly duperly stoked about it.

Year of the Ox

So I meant to post this the other day, better late than never. This year is the year of the Ox in Chinese Astrology...I, however, am a Rat! My horoscope is as follows via iCiNG.

Rat 1912, 1924, 1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996

Romance could be tricky for rats this year. Many of you in long-term relationships will come to the realisation that the person you’re with is not the one you actually want. However, that’s the only area of 2009 which presents problems, because everything else looks wonderful. This is a great year for your career, especially for those people who work outdoors or have positions of leadership or authority. Rats will eat a lot of good food this year too, but should take care not to overindulge! The elder family members of rats may have health problems, & rats are discouraged from engaging in risky sports because the chance of getting harmed is high! Overall, rats will make great progress this year as long as they know that good things take time.

Hmmm.....We shall see, Chinese Astrology....We shall see.

i want more tattoos and cute hair

like this girl, gala darling...she is adorable

Resolutions, Resolutions Update

An update of my Resolutions for 2009.

1. Volunteer at the Children's Hospital.

I haven't done this yet. I think there's an informational meeting next month, but I can't remember. I did send an email, asking about how to volunteer....So...I'm getting there? I need to try harder on this one.

2. Be creative.
This was an easy one for me...I've completed and hung 2 paintings that go together. I love them! I've also been working more on my scrapbook. Ultimately, I want to sew more. So far so good though.

3. Save 100 dollars a week.
Done and done! I've saved mega bucks this month and I love it!

4. Vegan: Do it.
With the occasional slip of chocolate and sometimes inevitable skim latte (because I can no longer have soy, doctor's orders), I've done pretty well this month.

5. Lose 5 lbs each month until March.
Womp! Womp! Haven't done this one this month. Although, I've been working out 5-6 days a week. I can only conclude that I need to pay more attention to what and when I eat. I have a bad habit of snacking-And even though I usually eat healthy things all the time, snacking is still a bad habit and isn't good for my metabolism (which is already pretty crummy).

6. Go to the gym 6 days a week.
GOAL REACHED FOR THIS MONTH! Keep it up, yo.

3.5 out of 6 this month, (a .5 for the vegan goal)...I think I'm doin pretty darn tootin grand!

what i want for my birthday

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